10 Days after Day 80: Still a little bit in shock.

10 Days after Day 80:  Still a little bit in shock.

I have to be honest.  I don't know if I have the words to conclude my first chapter of this project.  Toward the end, I wasn't as great about journaling because so much had developed and I didn't know what to make of it.
I do feel wiser, more expanded, stronger, and more connected.  I have to say, however, that it's less about qualities that, I, Marissa am developing.  It's more about getting out of my own way to let these qualities that we all have shine through.  It's all about shedding, shedding, shedding (and vacuuming, vacuuming, vacuuming).  While not immune to bouts of bitchiness, self-doubt, or chewing on shoe, getting back on the swaggin' wagon is easier.
The financial situation that inspired me to "let go and let God" has pretty much resolved itself.  Interestingly enough, the second job that I took this holiday didn't prove to be lucrative for me.  But around day 70, I received a financial gift beyond what my schemes produce.  It was big, it was beautiful, and it made me cry (the ugly kind).
Another unexpected outcome of this 80 day project is a deeper understanding that we are never ever done.  I've always known this, but I KNOW it now.  And, I realize that I'll probably know it even more later :)  That being said, I think that this journey will continue for me. 

Chapter 2 begins March 3.

Day 78: Still Practicing

Even though I haven't been blogging.  I'm still practicing this.
Despite a few meltdowns, it's working.